Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Psych 101

For the last few days I've awakened in the midst of odd dreams. The dreams are not bad, but they are unpleasant and often pick at some inner issue I thought was long resolved. This morning, I was back in high school (for cryin' out loud) and some of those old yucky feelings were in the dream with me. I read somewhere that if you have children, when they are at stages you had difficulty with, you relive the emotions you experienced at their age. I suspect there's some truth to that but the whole dream experience is so underground. During my waking hours I'm cruising along just fine enjoying 48 and then I wake up in the morning with a quirky feeling in my head about when I was 15.
I think the Lord is trying to tell me something. I don't have a handle on exactly what it is just yet but I'm forming a hypothesis. I'm not so good with change and since 2004 our family has been losing numbers to the big wide world-6,5,4. And even now most times there's 2 or 3 at dinner or doing the family activity. I think maybe He's telling me I haven't let go as completely He'd like. Maybe I'm decorating a pit of regrets when He wants me to live today with Him.

1 comment:

Darla said...

hey siesta! that could be it,or maybe the enemy is just taunting you to try to keep you from enjoying HIS presence! yesterday is over, and we get a do-over for today.Wooohooooo, I don't know about you but I am very thrilled that HIS mercy is new every morning...some mornings I need a truck load! But I have had dreams like that and they play on my worst fears...and that's when I pray and remember that I am to have no fear in this life except Holy fear. I think that is when the enemy tries to walk me back into those old strongholds.. I have broken free, and although there may be more pits for me to visit...not live in...I know I am not walking back in those old ones as hard as it was to get out! Love you sista, keeping you in thought and prayer, happy 4th! Princess Darla