For the last few days I've awakened in the midst of odd dreams. The dreams are not bad, but they are unpleasant and often pick at some inner issue I thought was long resolved. This morning, I was back in high school (for cryin' out loud) and some of those old yucky feelings were in the dream with me. I read somewhere that if you have children, when they are at stages you had difficulty with, you relive the emotions you experienced at their age. I suspect there's some truth to that but the whole dream experience is so underground. During my waking hours I'm cruising along just fine enjoying 48 and then I wake up in the morning with a quirky feeling in my head about when I was 15.
I think the Lord is trying to tell me something. I don't have a handle on exactly what it is just yet but I'm forming a hypothesis. I'm not so good with change and since 2004 our family has been losing numbers to the big wide world-6,5,4. And even now most times there's 2 or 3 at dinner or doing the family activity. I think maybe He's telling me I haven't let go as completely He'd like. Maybe I'm decorating a pit of regrets when He wants me to live today with Him.
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hey siesta! that could be it,or maybe the enemy is just taunting you to try to keep you from enjoying HIS presence! yesterday is over, and we get a do-over for today.Wooohooooo, I don't know about you but I am very thrilled that HIS mercy is new every morning...some mornings I need a truck load! But I have had dreams like that and they play on my worst fears...and that's when I pray and remember that I am to have no fear in this life except Holy fear. I think that is when the enemy tries to walk me back into those old strongholds.. I have broken free, and although there may be more pits for me to visit...not live in...I know I am not walking back in those old ones as hard as it was to get out! Love you sista, keeping you in thought and prayer, happy 4th! Princess Darla
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