Monday, April 28, 2008

Where have I been

I don't know where my mind has been lately. I forgot about my blog in the everyday of my life! I think that forgetting about it is probably an indication of how old I am.
I finished Breaking Free and I felt so panicked at the thought of drifting right back to my old self that I signed up to do Beth's online study on the Fruits of the Spirit. Which is how I ended up back on the computer and reading blogs and realizing I don't remember what's been going on but it's a lot.
My oldest graduates from UVA May 18!
My next son has, by God's grace, gone back to school, gotten a job and is moving into school sponsered housing-meaning he's giving up living with the girlfriend!
My oldest daughter has found a college she thinks she wants to attend.
The youngest is thriving at her school.
Day by day, waiting on the Lord and He always gives me what I need.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

I have a lot of thoughts rolling around in my head after today's Breaking Free session. I am so thankful for Beth Moore and her way of just laying the truth out there in her Texas twang. I'm even more grateful that God assigned me to her classes.
Today, Beth talked about God's number one priority for our lives-to love Him. And she went on to say that we might think we've loved Him, but maybe we haven't loved Him in the way He's commanded us to in scripture. She has a list of questions that she asked to give us an indication where we were with loving Him. I realized that I'm doing better than I would have thought-but also I sensed that same old reluctance within me to push myself to love Him more. Like many times in her studies-I think something and as I'm thinking it-she addresses the thought. (It's definitely a God thing, this conversation that takes place between me and Beth from a book or on a screen.) She said that we can try to love Him on our own; it isn't going to work. The ability to love God with all our hearts and souls and minds comes from Him. I keep falling into the pit of making myself in charge of my life and then I wonder why it isn't quite what it should be.